That night, I locked myself up in my room, sat at the corner of my bed and cried. I don't know why but I thought it was the best way. I don't know how to solve all of my problems. I feel so lost and clueless. I have no one to turn to. Everybody hates me. Even my family. No one understands me, not even my parents. Nobody's there when I need them but heck, I'm always there when they need me. Hello? I have feelings, too.
I want to die (no, i won't kill myself). I feel like i'm a burden to everyone. Yes, everyone. I'm tired of pretending i'm okay when i'm not. i'm tired of feeling so lonely, friendless and useless. I'm tired of getting my heart broken by some useless boy. I'm tired of my "friends" backstabbing me. It's just...i'm tired of EVERYTHING. I feel like i've been fooled. I think society nowadays are stupid. People now are being so judgmental and so cruel towards each other.The world is such a cruel place to live in.
I'm
not always right, but i hate admitting im wrong. I'm always smiling, but
it's not always real. I can be read like an open book, but i hide so
much. I work hard at things, but i dont always get what i deserve.
I hope one day, I'll find a solution to get away out of this mess
