Salam Maal Hijrah! I guess it's not too late to wish, eh? It's new year for the Muslims. My new year resolution: to change for the better. I'm not saying that i'm not happy with who i am now. Well, not exactly happy, sometimes i do feel disappointed with myself. I've changed a lot since the past few years. When i was 12, I was the top student in my school, being awarded 'Tokoh Akademik' and got 5As in my UPSR AND i listened to my parents. When i turned 13, BOOM i changed. A lot. I became very rebellious, was very rude to my parents, they asked me to wear hijab but i refused to, i was very wild and my grades dropped. I chose the wrong friends and they hated me lol. I fought with people a lot and i was very very very far from Allah. Horrible, right? I was still the same when i was 14 but this time, i was starting to fit in, i wanted a boyfriend and the others were just the same. When i turned 15, i started to behave myself. I was falling in love, my grades got better, i learnt about friendship and i was loving my school life. That's a hell lot of change, isn't it?
I remember when i was eleven, i got bullied by some of the twelve-year-old mean girls in my school. They called me a nerd for getting good grades in my exams. They called me a loser for not fighting back when they attacked me. Oh, right. The leader of the group did attack and threatened me, physically and mentally. She'd push my head real hard and that made me fall to the ground. They called me names. They judged me. It was horrible and awful. What did i ever do to them? I was just an innocent 11-year-old kid! I cried almost everyday, knowing i wasn't safe at school. At one point, i couldn't stand anymore. I forced myself to tell my parents and they reported it to my teachers. Alhamdulillah, everything was settled after that. I hate bullies. I hate bullying.
