I've learned so many things throughout the year: friendship, love, studies, school and relationship with family. So many lessons that i've learned from my experiences. Good or bad, that doesn't matter. I'm growing up and yes, i do miss my childhood to be honest. A lot, actually. I want to be a doctor. I like going to clinics or hospitals, looking at the doctors treating their patients. When i was a child, i liked to pretend like a doctor and my little brothers would be the patients. I would use mechanical pencils as the injection and erasers as the plasters. My mom would buy me the toy version of doctor's accessories and i would invite my neighbours or friends to come and play with me. Hah, i miss that moment. But sadly, i'm already a teen. It's like a few steps from my ambition and all i need is to study hard in order to achieve it. But one thing, i'm lazy. I'm very lazy. I tried to change myself so many times, though but i failed.
Friendship: Hmm. . . I have nothing to say about it actually but i am blessed to have some wonderful, amazing and awesome friends around me. I failed at friendship when i was 13 and 14. I was a very bad friend back then. I fought with my friends a lot and they hated me so much. LOL. But Alhamdulillah, i didn't fight with anyone this year. Well, a bit but it only lasted for a day. Hahah. My friends are amazing. They'll be there whenever i need them and i love them so much. Although i feel friendless at times haha.
Love: Wow, this is a tough topic. I didn't date anyone this year, but i did fall in love with someone. Love is an emotion of a strong affection and personal attachment. This person that i loved is really special. I did 2 posts about him. That just shows how much he means to me. But sadly, he doesn't love me back. We're good friends, though. Maybe God has planned someone better for me, i don't know. God knows how much I love him and maybe, just maybe that's why He doesn't want us to be together because if we fight, it might hurt me. Maybe He wants us to stay just friends. It's not worth waiting for someone to love you back. It just doesn't
happen. I know he is probably the only guy you want to be with right
now, but I have no doubt that there are many guys out there who would be
happy to be with you and would make a great boyfriend. Many will say just move on, which may be best. However I know it is not
that easy. Our heart is very powerful and when you love someone no
matter what happens it is hard to ignore and just move on. However, i've moved on and i'm happy with it :)
